15th of February 2013

After yesterdays initial shock part of me really didn't want to go into work yesterday. All that kept running through my head was "Why bother? I'm gone in a few month anyways." But somehow I managed to pick myself up and head to the train station to go to work. I completely forgot that my friend Rocio wasn't coming in today, and I didn't realise this until I got to the station and didn't see her there.

When I got to work not many people were in, as a lot did arrive late. I have a feeling that even though some people were being let go and the rest were staying, a lot of people were shocked to the core and were also going to take it easy today as well. I caught up with a co-worker of mine Jamie, and had a bit of a chat with her before we started to get to work. She was concerned with how I was and wanted to know if I was going to be ok. I was bluntly honest in explaining that I still do not know how they chose the people that were going. Take me out of the picture, but a lot of those who were left to go were great people and high achievers so that didn't make sense to me. As for the rest, there are a lot who do slack off and also come in late who are staying. So that theory behind letting people go escapes me. After the chat with Jamie I headed back to my desk and got started to work.

I also took it a little easier today and tried not to do anything too complicated, as I honestly do not think I was in the right mind set to do anything too difficult. Especially when explaining a lot of things to suppliers. I did get a lot done which I was very proud of myself.

During lunch I joined Gloria and Jia and basically just vented about what was weighing on our minds. Even though they are both safe and are staying, the whole process of eliminating people confused them to. Jia also suggested that I join her and a bunch of people after work for a couple of drinks before I head off home. I wasn't sure I should, but in the end I decided to to have a little bit of fun before crashing when I got home.

I stayed back for about half an hour more than my usual time and did a bit of work while I waited for everyone else to finish that was coming with us to the bar for drinks. I quickly freshened up a little bit and joined everyone else. Had a mojito, which I'm not too fond of as I really don't like mint. But guzzled it down anyways. No matter how much we tried to avoid it, the topic of people who were leaving and who wasn't leaving did come up. One person pointed out that they saw me cry when I left the meeting room. I told them that they must've been dreaming as I have too much pride to let something like that knock me down and make a fool out of myself.

When 7pm came and went I took off home. On the way there I noticed on Facebook that mum was mentioning the internet again. So when I arrived home I gave Telstra a call to find out what all the fuss was about. Ended up fixing everything up so now we have internet! Hooray! Another big day with my emotions tossed all over the place. I was relieved that I was finally going to bed!